Been a While

I was doing good for a little bit, but I guess I just got off track with this whole writing thing. Everything seems to be coming together for the most part. I'm getting excited and nervous about November, 92 days til the due date of the baby...but in all reality I could be in the delivery room in 2 months! It's a little stressful not knowing when she'll be here, I like to be in control of things and this I definitely do not have control over. It's not that I'm nervous about taking care of the baby once she gets here, I am more nervous about the actual labor and delivery. There are so many different thoughts that run and jump around in my mind. Everyone says not to read the "horror" stories, and not to think about the bad things that could happen...but I just can't help it sometimes. Thankfully we have hospitals that are well equipped with monitors and well-trained staff to make the process as safe as possible, but I can't help it when my mind wanders into the sea of the unknown. The "What-If" game plays a lot of tricks on me about the whole thing. I know I just have to take things day by day, but it's a struggle for sure.

On a lighter note, I have job interview #2 with School Time Learning in Riverside. I am really hoping that I get a job at this school. They are hiring for a number of positions...preschool teacher, preschool teacher aide, after school teacher (with elementary kids), floater, and office assistant. I'd love to be in the classroom again, I've been out of work for so long at this point I'm literally going crazy. The positions are full time for the most part, I think the teacher's aide position is the only one that's part time. I can take the baby with me once I go back to work after maternity leave. That way I can actually watch her grow and change, I'll be around for the milestones it'll be amazing. Not to mention the fact that the school is right down the street from where Jared works and where he goes to school. I won't have to miss him so much on his long days. I'll be able to see him in between. So, I'm really hoping today goes well and I can get creative and don't freeze up. But I guess whatever is meant to be will be.