What will tomorrow bring?

I tell myself over and over that I am going to keep up this blogging business, but it's not the easiest thing to do. I get distracted with other things going on, taking care of lily, sleeping, homework...the basics. Lately I've been thinking a lot about the future. It scares me a little, ok a lot, that I am unsure of where I will be next year, let alone in 5 years down the road. I've always had this plan of how things will go, and although I veer off the path from time to time at least there is a plan. For now I'm living in San Bernardino, raising Lily, and doing online classes. I can't see much farther down the road than maybe a month or two, and honestly I'm not a big fan. I want more, and I think I deserve to let myself desire more, but at the same time I feel like I should be happy with the present...which I am, don't get me wrong.

Meeting up with Gracie last night was nice. I hadn't talk to her in a while and being able to talk to her about the future, and how she's kinda there too was a bit of a relief. I guess even after you have your house, marriage, and career you still wonder what comes next. Just gotta have faith.

On another note, I've been enjoying planning Lily's baptism reception. I love putting favors, decorations, and food together. Sometimes I really think I should have just stuck with event planning. I know it would take up weekends and summers, but I really love putting colors and themes together...I especially take pride in the end result. Maybe I can be one of those crazy Blogger moms that actually makes money blogging and I can do it all on event planning somehow, or start some kind of event planning gig with Alyssa and Grace like we talked about so much? Decisions, decisions.

Well, I'm off to bed. Lily's been asleep for almost an hour which means I probably have an hour before she's up again :P

Hopefully I can get to sleep in my empty bed. It's always so strange when Jared's gone.