rejuvination

Sunday Lily and I went to church and saw Fr Dave for what may be the last time. He has been such a huge part of my spiritual life and growth...from the loss of a loved one to the birth of my beautiful daughter. OLA has been so blessed to have him for the last 7 years and he will be missed so much! I have never felt so close to a priest, even my uncle. He sat and listened when I needed to talk. He pushed me when he knew I could do more than I thought. He gave me the opportunities I needed to grow in my faith. Without him I don't know that I would have taken the steps I did to create and facilitate my own jr high group while I was still in high school. The support and encouragement I received from him and the rest of the staff gave me the confidence to continue to give my time and energy to the youth of the church. Sunday's mass was extremely emotional for me. Although being back at OLA is nice and I feel at home, my spiritual life isn't as strong as it used to be and I don't like the void that leaves. After seeing Fr Dave and Deacon John on Sunday, as well as my old students (who are now the new teachers) I have decided it's time to take charge and change what I am not happy with, and what isn't healthy in my life. I can't change those around me, but I can change the life I lead for myself. It's time to move on from working with the high school ministry and help other mom's like me...I've decided I want to work with the church to start a bible study group for moms...I hope our new priest is as excited about these things as Fr Dave was :)

Anywho, off to Grace's to bake the day away and then a visit to Janet who hasn't seen Lily since we were in the hospital!

The start of something beautiful

Lily just went down for her nap. It took a while to get her down, but she fell asleep in her crib!!! And it's the second time in a row, she did it last night too. I just let her cry in her crib for a little bit then go in lay her down pat her back for a while and bam asleep...well, maybe I'm making it sound easier than it really was but it just made me super happy and accomplished :)

Thank you Google!

So, I've been putting together meal plans for about a week or two at a time. It's been a help when going to the grocery store. I have an idea of everything I will need and don't have to make random trips to the store for odd things. Even though meal planning makes the trip to the store easier I don't hardly stick to it. Thanks to Google calendars though I moved my meal plan from One Note to a calendar and I can see it on my phone or computer. It also makes it easy to share with Gracie :) She and I have been talking for a while about helping each other with dinners...now we can actually do it! Not only will it keep track of the meal itself, but the recipe can go in the description section and bam you've got it forever!

Worst feeling ever!

It's 3am and I've been up with Lily since 1:30. Before that she woke up at 12 after barely going to bed at 11. At the moment I am listening to her cry in her crib from the couch with tears in my own eyes. This was attempt 3 at laying her down and I just don't know what else to do. She sleeps great while in my arms, but as soon as I lay her down she wakes up crying. I'm completely exhausted and don't know how much more sleep I can go without. I have always been against the cry it out method, but I'm willing to try at this point...although, Lily is just hysterical in her room right now, I'll probably only last another minute.